shame is so in this season

self aware of the self

i'd like to dedicate this post to the vintage teeshirt skinny jeans receding hairline thirtysomething indieboy with a girly manbag who gave me a flat tire as i was stepping out of the q train this morning causing me to go face first into a large woman's undoubtedly large ass. here's to you, you walking lug of an identity crisis...

is being self aware a good thing? i know the term is often paired with other words like egotistical and asshole, but i think that it can be advantageous in many situations. again with the mta - i don't know why i everything of consequence in my life happens on the subway - i saw a guy on the escalator with one foot on one step (normal) and the other foot on the 4th step above the former foot (not normal). he was doing lunges on the escalator in the middle of rush hour. as i attempted to pass him on the left i looked at his face (i know, curiosity raped the cat) and he gave me a look that said "yes, i know i'm doing lunges. yes, i know everyone's looking at me. yes, i know you want my hot body. yes. yes. yessssss." for the record, i did NOT want his hot body. but the point i'm making is that he seemed totally above what passes as everyday conscious awareness of one's actions/appearance/statements/etc. i mean that it's one thing to be purposeful, but it's definitely something else when you're self aware. at first i was put off by it, but then i was midly impressed. am i wrong?

posted by erica @ 10:51 AM